I have excess everywhere\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In the fridge, I buy stuff, I don\u2019t have time to eat them all, I throw them away\u2026
In the closet, I buy stuff, then I clean them out, give them away, make space, and then it fills up again\u2026
In toys, I don\u2019t even know when I\u2019m buying them, or others are buying them, and suddenly there\u2019s nowhere to put them, I\u2019m constantly going through them, and they just keep growing\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In my head\u2026this one is the worst because you can\u2019t just choose what\u2019s excessive and throw it away\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I admit, I have no control over the amount of things around me. Occasionally, I really try to sit down, get my shit together, and organize everything. Throw stuff away, make room for new things, arrange them thematically, color-coded, chronological\u2026and then it\u2019s nice, just for a moment, until another pileup comes\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The hardest thing to deal with is probably the mental chaos, because it requires a daily discipline, rutine and organization. Because of the life I\u2019ve chosen, a lot of my interaction with the world takes place online. Connecting with family via WhatsApp, friends via Instagram, and getting news about the world through social media. Last year (and this was also my New Year\u2019s challenge) I reduced the number of accounts I followed and switched to other media to gather information about the world \u2013 radio and podcasts. I succeeded quite well. However, the very nature of social media means that every time I open it, something always pops up, opening a new tab in my mind, and leaves me awake and alert, often unconsciously. This is one of the greatest challenges of our times. The ability and discipline to mentally organize information so I still have energy for other important things and simply for life. I don\u2019t even know when it happens, but suddenly I have a series of headlines, posts, and opinions in my head that make no sense to me. Maybe for a moment they gave me the feeling that I know what\u2019s going on in the world, even though I don\u2019t really know any of the details. I can\u2019t quite put it all together. Only impulses and emotions surface \u2013 \u201ethis is good,\u201d this is \u201enot good,\u201d this evokes fear, this gives hope, and that\u2019s it. The sheer number of open pages, unprocessed, without in-depth reflection, rattles around in my head, creating chaos and fueling anxiety. I don\u2019t reflect on these topics when they arise; I just accumulate them, expending a ton of energy on this accumulation, and what I need is some kind of outlet, digestion, and closure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A few days ago, I sat at the table with Alina, and we chatted word by word, about work, crises, ideas for the future, films, people\u2026 we sat and weaved thread by thread, slowly connecting, word by word. Then I realized that this one spontaneous conversation gave me exactly what I needed, something I forget about on a daily basis. During the slow exchange of thoughts, listening, and responding, the chaos fell into place. I managed to work through the various ideas and threads that had been lingering in my head and had accumulated over the past two weeks. I didn\u2019t even realize how many connections there were\u2014that scene from the movie, that article, that conversation, that song, that quote\u2026it turned out that my attention lingered (even for a microsecond) on similar threads, everything oscillating around a thought that was slowly forming within me. But I couldn\u2019t put it together because I didn\u2019t have the time or space for it. And suddenly, half an hour, maybe a little longer, and one engaged person were enough for the peace and inspiration to emerge from the chaos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know it\u2019s hard to find such places and spaces for quiet reflection, and I also know that it\u2019s absolutely essential for normal functioning and not going crazy.
I hope for myself and for you that we find the time and kind people around us to help each other sort out this chaos. Systematically wrap up topics, or at least digest them a bit. Because then everything immediately feels lighter and somehow different. Better, calmer, and easier to live with.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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